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This heart-wrenching memoir from Toni Maguire tells the deeply moving story of an idyllic childhood that masked a terrible truth. Underneath her mother's gentility and her father's roguish charm lay horrifying secrets, which eventually led to their only child's near destruction. The first time her father made an improper advance on Toni, she was six years old. Her father warned her not to tell her mother, or anyone else, because they would blame her and wouldn't love her any more. It had to remain โour secret.โ When she finally built up the courage to tell her mother what had happened, she was told never to speak of the matter again. With no one to turn to, isolated and alone in rural Ireland, the abuse continued unhindered. At fourteen Toni fell pregnant by her father, and when her state was discovered she was made to have a late abortion which almost killed her. The truth of her childhood could no longer be kept hidden but, just as her father predicted, Toni found herself judged and rejected by her family, teachers and friends. The blame and anger she was treated with only worsened when her father was sent to prison as a result of his actions. This is the compelling story of her struggle to put the ghost of her childhood to rest, and emerge ultimately triumphant. Review: Superb - Iโve read several books in this genre, and without doubt, this is the most beautifully and intelligently written of all. Ms Maguire takes us on a journey through her childhood, where the young girl has no choice but to accept the changes thrown at her. The injustices and prejudices against a child being forced into horrible situations with no one to support her filled me with anger and made me wish I could reach back in time to hug her. She lived in a โmysterious adult world where childrenโs feelings are not realโ but made it through, and I look forward to the sequel to discover how Toni deals with fresh challenges. This book was so well written that I felt like I knew her. I also enjoyed the references to places in Northern Ireland, which made me long for a Morelliโs ice cream and a stroll along Portstewart Strand. Review: Heartbreaking and Incredibly Brave - This book had me in tears in various places throughout the account of Toni Maguire's childhood and adolescence. It is the emotional account of her relationship with her physically and sexually abusive father and the mother who stood by him through it all. Antoinette was 6 when her father first sexually abused her and the abuse continued for nine years. She was told, and believed, that any admission to anyone would result in her being blamed, that is if anyone believed her in the first place. This story is so well told that I can only assume that it must have taken an enormous amount of courage to write. Having said that, it is written so well that the reader almost becomes a fly on the wall through it all. I can't say that I enjoyed reading this story, but I am glad that I did. It is an amazing story written by an amazing woman.
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| Customer Reviews | 4.5 out of 5 stars 727 Reviews |
N**L
Superb
Iโve read several books in this genre, and without doubt, this is the most beautifully and intelligently written of all. Ms Maguire takes us on a journey through her childhood, where the young girl has no choice but to accept the changes thrown at her. The injustices and prejudices against a child being forced into horrible situations with no one to support her filled me with anger and made me wish I could reach back in time to hug her. She lived in a โmysterious adult world where childrenโs feelings are not realโ but made it through, and I look forward to the sequel to discover how Toni deals with fresh challenges. This book was so well written that I felt like I knew her. I also enjoyed the references to places in Northern Ireland, which made me long for a Morelliโs ice cream and a stroll along Portstewart Strand.
R**D
Heartbreaking and Incredibly Brave
This book had me in tears in various places throughout the account of Toni Maguire's childhood and adolescence. It is the emotional account of her relationship with her physically and sexually abusive father and the mother who stood by him through it all. Antoinette was 6 when her father first sexually abused her and the abuse continued for nine years. She was told, and believed, that any admission to anyone would result in her being blamed, that is if anyone believed her in the first place. This story is so well told that I can only assume that it must have taken an enormous amount of courage to write. Having said that, it is written so well that the reader almost becomes a fly on the wall through it all. I can't say that I enjoyed reading this story, but I am glad that I did. It is an amazing story written by an amazing woman.
M**T
Shocked & Saddened
This is author Toni Maguires true story of her harrowing childhood in Belfast in the 1950's, at the hands of a sexually abusive father. It runs along side of the story of her sitting in a nursing home as an adult, with her terminally ill mother. As she keeps her vigil, her memories come back to her and she begins to tell her story of her childhood. This is not a story of neglect in a material sense as is usually the case, but a fairly average childhood in all other respects, interspersed with horrendous sexual abuse. As we find out, the damage caused lasts a lifetime for Toni. This is another book I couldn't put down until finished. How a parent can do such things to a child is totally beyond my belief! It highlights the fact that so many families can hide such hideous secrets behind a cover of "normality" and "respectability". Well worth a read. Don't Tell Mummy: A True Story of the Ultimate Betrayal
S**N
Book
Good read
C**E
Brilliant
So hard to put down makes you want to read the rest of her books straight away really good book
C**K
Sad and powerful
A hard hitting story of the lacking of humankind. One child betrayed by so many when love and support should have been their response. This book was hard to read purely because it tells of so much evil. It's extremely well written and honest.
C**E
The most despicable dad!
The most despicable โfatherโ....how could he call himself a dad! I cannot imagine what this child went through. How I wish somebody had known enough to have gone to the police. Her mother knew. I cannot believe this mother ever truly loved her child. A motherโs instinct is always to protect her child at all costs....but this mother never did. This poor childโs life was ruined, in childhood and later as a teenager. I found it hard to read. This man should have spent the rest of his life behind bars. The mother simply turned a blind eye. Well written but so very sad.
J**N
An incredible story
Beautifully written, a truly shocking tale, full of suspense and as the sub-title says the ultimate betrayal. The descriptions of nature alongside the horrors of what happened work really well. Brilliant!
B**G
I just finished reading this book.
Wow.. this book broke my heart โฅ๏ธ the book is well written. I couldnโt put the book down, well detailed, I feel so sick to my stomach reading the book.. Iโm sorry that you went to all of this Hell in your parents house. Iโm hoping that your life is much better now after all of this years..
C**L
Five Stars
Very sad, well-written and hard to stop reading
I**E
Couldn't put it down
This book is for everyone. Child abuse should be written about, talked about and stopped. Victims should be encouraged to speak and understand they are not alone. Toni's book was well written and I felt her pain in every line. It's amazing how today, victim blaming, which Toni experienced, is sadly still widespread. I look forward to reading her other books. Highly recommended!
A**E
Great read!
This is a wonderful book for many who think they are alone in their abuse and suffering. As they say, there is always someone worse than you! Sad story. But, with courage and resilience you too can survive the abuse with determination and speaking out! I recommend this well written book!
C**S
Heart wrenching
Oh my gosh i love Toni Maguire books . Amazing read
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